Just back from Kolej Matrikulasi Labuan yesterday and i'm actually feeling good about it. At first i was scared to be in new place but in the end i met many new friends from all over Borneo. We took a week for orientation and God the worst irritating word for the week was COMPRESS! Imagine in a not so big hall all of nearly 2000 people have to seat on the floor for hours to listen to the talk.
Knee to knee, and leg to leg. That's the space for a person to sit. The worst part was when i sat in the middle of the crowd. There was air-cond but i simply didn't feel any of the breeze. As the hall was full of noise from chattery students, the air getting hotter every minute and that time i felt sooo claustrophobic and depressed. I can't move my legs because it's crossed and it hurts.
My back and hips were seriously cramped plus my legs!
Oh My God Oh My God!!That very moment i thought i was going to turn into The Hulk. However i'm glad i did not.(*laughs) It was really a lesson to learn because Michelle and i sat at the side for the rest of the orientation. We get to stretch our legs after that..Ahaks! XD Two words as stated by Toy, BONTOT CRAMP
Okay, enough of the orientation. I though KML was like some sort of SBP like Kale told me but she's definitely wrong and it's a waste she didn't enroll to there, instead she was planning on UNIMAS or Taylor's College. Well, it's all up to yourself right?
"If you think that's the best for you, IT IS the best."
Being a freshman, i really have to manage my time very very properly and finance. In order to get 4.00 CGPA, i must work hard by always seeing the lecturer for further guidance and of course marks. Hehee..Money? Yes! Definitely and a MUST! Or else i'll get hungry before the next allowance is given and i admit some of the cafeteria is very expensive and i really need to think of a way to save up at least a few ringgit.
For now, i had my short one week break before study starts and i'm actually feeling positive about it. I had seen the light to achive excellence in KML and i look forward for studying. First thing first i need to ready myself so i can keep the momentum until i finish 2 semester. And through this orientation week, i now realise what's the true reason i'm busting my butt up all these years.MY PARENTS. I want to work hard to get 4.00 flat because i want to make them happy and proud and bring them to travel all around the world when i'm already succeed. That's the first true and real reason i forgot all these years. I'M DOING THIS FOR MY PARENTS AND YES! I AM.
God, please help me. Walk with me in this journey that i'll never know what'll happen along it. Bless me in whatever i do because all i'm doing is for my parents. To make them happy. I know i'm a sinful slave of yours but truly from the deepest of my heart i'll pray to you day and night. Make my heart strong and tough so i will never give up in anything for example assignments,tutorials, or my studies no matter how difficult it is. And teach me to love life, to love you God, to love to one and another because the first and foremost lesson of yours is to love each other. I really want to do this for them, achieving 4.00 flat so i can achieve my dreams and i believe nothing is possible with you. NOTHING! And at the end of the day teach me to be humble so i did not forget where i come from. Amen.
